You are not better off than the mad man at the tomb because you are in the same world. He is a two in one person. Believe now so you can be saved and set free.
And always, night and day, he was in the mountains and in the tombs, crying and cutting himself with stones. But when he saw Jesus afar off, he ran and worshipped him; Mark 5:5, 6.
As the mad man ran and worshipped Jesus so you too can. Nobody can rewind his life in order to escape from the bondage of sin. There must be the impulse for a fresh life. This total renewal is being born again by faith in the Redeemer who bore the judgement on the cross in our stead.
Be filled with the Holy Spirit (Ephesians 5:18) so you can become a two in one person in the spirit